I've just kept the phone aside after talking to my mum for nearly 40 mins. I had to keep it before my mum decided that she was tired and wanted to say goodbye. Because I am not ready to officially acknowledge this reversal of fortunes. It was never like this; it was always me, so eager to hang up and make a run for it. Not that she wanted to run, but you know, she was satisfied, she was content with 40 mins. But I love it none the less. I love the fact that I have become this person who can talk to her mother on the phone for 40 mins and still want more. I love the fact that compared to 4 or 5 years earlier, when all my love was devoted to one person, now, I have the same amount of love or perhaps more, for not one but so many people. I have such awesome love capacity! I want and do so much more for all these people. It makes me feel like a bigger person than what I used to be, it makes me value myself more, because I know I am a good investment.
Its so odd but, because I could just as easily dislike myself. I am not popular, I come off as anti-social. I haven't been in a relationship in what...? in fact I've barely dated in more than 2 years. My past relationships have been stand-up-and-applaud- flops. Yet, I feel, the next guy, if pretty decent, honest and unselfish, is damn lucky to have me. heh.
What overconfidence, right? wrong!
What overconfidence, right? wrong!
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Right all the way
:)
:P:P
curious, how do you come off as "anti social"??
due to lack of interaction, excessive glaring and limited smiling. but im making increased efforts to come across as warm and pleasant.
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