Tuesday, August 27, 2013

For whatever reason, this question has come up several times: what if you had a clone, would you like her company?
I don't know whether having another of me will make me lonelier or make me like myself more.

I don't like being with myself, because then all these questions of who i am, what is really true and what is not comes up. In the company of others, I have someone or the other to validate or contradict the things I say or sometimes think. Everything becomes more real then. I don't know if anything my clone says would matter. On the other hand, I and my clone may get very competitive. Sometimes, get tired and not say anything. Or sometimes just let the other say what she wants because we know we can use the sympathy. May be we will support each other like no one else can.
How I treat my clone and how I react to her might also say something about my expectations of the world. It might reveal a lot of flaws I can correct.

I realize its one thing to have duplicated genes and another to have a random cocktail. But still, I am already a clone in a way, right? When I talk to dad and mum I am surprised by how much I am like them, for better or for worse. It shouldn't be perhaps, after all they are my parents. But I lived my life thinking of myself as an individual. Individual with attachments but not someone who was derived from others. What is even more weird is that my sis is another clone. I don't know if shes all that like them , and we certainly aren't alike.

It confuses me, those time travel movies, where the same guy and girl hook up in the time traveled past, so that the exact same person is conceived and that person continues to exist in the future. But you can't be sure that the same sperm attaches itself to the egg. They could conceive someone totally different.

Maybe my clone wouldn't be like me at all.

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