Jobs, what are they?

When you have a job, it is the most mundane thing. You do some work, and then you do some more based on how much you fear the uncertainty of not having a job. You are ok with being a cog in the wheel, though you get that itch from time to time. You are ok feeling smug cos you did a good job. A good job of what? A report?
Anyhow, that's what it feels like when you have a job. When you are about to change jobs/be unemployed/enter the market for the first time, there are usually two sorts of feelings you experience. One, you feel a silent, exciting thrill. Anything and everything can change, what you do, how you do it, where you are going to live, who all you are going to meet (well, sometimes this is exciting), what you do when you are not doing the job-do. It is exciting in the sense that your senses are now going to be immersed in a different reality.
Two, you think, fuck I've got to do the whole damn charade all over again, that fake enthusiasm and agreeability and timed displays of intelligence, goodwill and collegiality. Just getting that air about you right. Its like getting ready for an act. Did they buy it? Did they buy the story? Were they so entertained that they didn't really give a shit if it was true, and just bought it anyway? Showmanship. Why is there always an element of showmanship about jobs. That need to appeal to other peoples personalities?
Now feeling all that is surprisingly normal. Its part and parcel of being anyone who just doesn't get it, the job thing. But the one that's not alright, the danger zone feeling is: oops I haven't found a job since I left last one a month back. This is when you realize that nobody wants you, when nobody thinks you can do a day's worth of work for them, you have nothing to contribute. Seriously, no one wants to give you that sum of money you find respectable enough to work for. You also realize soon enough that you rely on the kindness of another bunch of folks, namely family and friends. The main difference between family and friends seems to be that the former has greater rights to get irritated with you about things that are none of their business. The longer you rely on such kindness, the more important it becomes for you to appeal thoroughly to their whims. Some want you to be amusing, some want you to find them amusing, some want you to show reverence to their greatness, oh your grace, your majesty, your highness. Yeah right, do that and they hate you, so play it cool. Patronage is a tricky business.
But just in case, and this is rarely the case, you can play this part well, pull it off with ease, not be a whiny bore or an overcompensating beggar, then you might just be brilliant at entrepreneurship. Because in essence what your are convincing people is that despite having no tangible use for you, there is some intangible worth to you, which is worth being "kept". You are capable of raising money by making others not give a shit about risk. Your investors wouldn't be asking how low-risk you are for the returns you are providing. Instead, you make them go, zero returns from this guy? Well, scratch scratch chin, that's acceptable; if it is this guy, getting NOTHING in return is ok, because that is what people do for this guy and everything is just jolly great.